What a beautiful and important thought, hun... Thx for sharing... :)
I’ve been wondering over very similar things in the last few weeks, actually… Does your perception of things depend on your mood and maybe even vice versa… ?
I noticed I feel the same way… Especially where you say everything’s just too bright when you’re depressed… And it’s far worse even after you cry… Then I can’t stand any shed of light, anyway, it just hurts all over… I have to wait until that feeling seizes until I can go outside or even look outside again…
Little things become more important to me in two ways… In a picture and out in nature it happens when I’m calm and balanced as I even feel more creative then… With people I love it happens, apart from everything else of course, when I worry, and when I’m nervous just as you say… When I worry about someone, I’m always most alert to never miss a thing. I always try to be alert, but when someone needs me the most, I try to never miss that point.
And what I also notice every once in a while, is what happens when I’m not at peace with myself or not balanced altogether or I don’t have the time to just stop for a moment and look at things, take in the details around me… When I’m in a rush. Then it’s like I don’t have a sense of smell…
I do of course, there’s nothing wrong with me or anything, but it’s a feeling as if I don’t smell things consciously… Do I make sense? – When I get better again or do have a peace of mind, then I stop particularly to take everything in that is or that happens around me… Freshly cut grass or how everything smells after it rains… Watch the snails when everything’s damp, wet…
A few weeks ago when I was a little sad I actually went out and I wandered around with my camera, curious where it’d take me… No destination in mind when I set off… Not really, anyway… And I stopped in the Stadtpark to take photos… I’d started out here in beautiful sunny weather and I’d never have expected it to rain in Hamburg that day, as it did on and off… Kept changing all the time, the weather was very indifferent. I didn’t mind. Even though I wasn’t prepared for this, really I did enjoy it immensely… All of it just felt like a cleansing… And after getting home I took a shower and went under my sheets to watch a dvd. That was it… As I said, it just felt clean from the inside and out… The rain, the sky clearing up again after it, some rays of light as the sun came out, and rain again… I didn’t care. It just felt so great…
Sorry I got into a little rant here, but that day was just so beautiful… And this here seems like exactly the right moment to share it with you. :)
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I’ve been wondering over very similar things in the last few weeks, actually… Does your perception of things depend on your mood and maybe even vice versa… ?
I noticed I feel the same way… Especially where you say everything’s just too bright when you’re depressed… And it’s far worse even after you cry… Then I can’t stand any shed of light, anyway, it just hurts all over… I have to wait until that feeling seizes until I can go outside or even look outside again…
Little things become more important to me in two ways… In a picture and out in nature it happens when I’m calm and balanced as I even feel more creative then… With people I love it happens, apart from everything else of course, when I worry, and when I’m nervous just as you say… When I worry about someone, I’m always most alert to never miss a thing. I always try to be alert, but when someone needs me the most, I try to never miss that point.
And what I also notice every once in a while, is what happens when I’m not at peace with myself or not balanced altogether or I don’t have the time to just stop for a moment and look at things, take in the details around me… When I’m in a rush. Then it’s like I don’t have a sense of smell…
I do of course, there’s nothing wrong with me or anything, but it’s a feeling as if I don’t smell things consciously… Do I make sense? – When I get better again or do have a peace of mind, then I stop particularly to take everything in that is or that happens around me… Freshly cut grass or how everything smells after it rains… Watch the snails when everything’s damp, wet…
A few weeks ago when I was a little sad I actually went out and I wandered around with my camera, curious where it’d take me… No destination in mind when I set off… Not really, anyway… And I stopped in the Stadtpark to take photos… I’d started out here in beautiful sunny weather and I’d never have expected it to rain in Hamburg that day, as it did on and off… Kept changing all the time, the weather was very indifferent. I didn’t mind. Even though I wasn’t prepared for this, really I did enjoy it immensely… All of it just felt like a cleansing… And after getting home I took a shower and went under my sheets to watch a dvd. That was it… As I said, it just felt clean from the inside and out… The rain, the sky clearing up again after it, some rays of light as the sun came out, and rain again… I didn’t care. It just felt so great…
Sorry I got into a little rant here, but that day was just so beautiful… And this here seems like exactly the right moment to share it with you. :)
*hugs*