Ill and bored

[mothwing]

I like those things.
 
1.What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Start a relationship and related activities, such as considering marriage.  

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I never have resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Sil.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Herr Heesch, my English teacher.

5. What countries did you visit?
Scotland.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
The ability to  make decisions. And then stick to them. Oh, and to plan my life.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Date... hm, the days between the 24.7.04 and the 28.7.04

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Overcoming my natural passivity in the right situations.

9. What was your biggest failure?
I completely fail to plan my life constantly.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Hm, there is always what I think is your average depression. But apart from that - nothing serious.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Railway tickets to Hesse.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
More or less all my family's and friend's for being open-minded in the right moments. 

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own.

14. Where did most of your money go?
University - books and photo copies. Apart from that: railway tickets.

15. What did you get really excited about?
My relationship.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Good question. "Leaving on a Jet Plane", "My Immortal", "Die Bahn Kommt"...

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
More confused. Even less focused on what I want to do with my life. But not happier or sadder.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Make sensible decisions.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Moping about, being depressed.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
This year? Dunno. I'll be in Scotland.

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Uhm... I fell even deeper in love with someone I already loved. Does that count?

23. How many one-night stands?
Zero.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Good question. I enjoyed "Friends" a lot, though.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No.

26. What was the best book you read?
Stanley Milgram "The Milgram-Experiment"

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Muse, I guess. And Apocalyptica. And the Wise Guys.

28. What did you want and get?
The person I love.

29. What did you want and not get?
An idea what I am going to do with this life of mine.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
"Secretary", "Ae Fond Kiss", uhm...

31. What did you do on your birthday?
Saw "Troy" with two of the most wonderful people in my life.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Knowing where I was going and what was the right thing for me. Something I still want and won't get.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
The abandonement of any fashion concept in favour of really baggy things which are comfy, making me look rather... horrible.

34. What kept you sane?
My friends, offline and online.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Viggo Mortensen and Johnny Depp.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The Iraq war.

37. Who do you miss?
Julez.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Lena, Anke and Christine, probably. And Joschi.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Come what may, people are more open-minded than one might think.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
I can never think of lyrics in situations like these.

Happy new year to all of you, again. :)

Had to stay home today because of a persistend cold.

Thinking about 2004 is depressing, in spite of all the good things which have happened. I have the feelings that I have achieved... more or less nothing. In academical terms. Learned too little, been too lazy... And I still don't know what I can do with my life. Or should. Sigh.

Comments

[rockychick.livejournal.com]

And I still don't know what I can do with my life. Or should. Sigh.

Hun, try one day at a time. Seriously. Life might wait for no one, but it also won't do any different if you stress about it. Take a deep breath and do what you want/need to do, and along the way take a walk in the sunshine or play in the rain. It's the little things that you'll remember later, I promise. :)

*hugs* and take care!

[mothwing.livejournal.com]

As always, your advice is really good, Rocky. :) And certainly appreciated. Very much so. Thanks a lot.
*hugs*

[rizardofoz.livejournal.com]

Yeah, don't worry about not accomplishing much over the past year. I feel that I didn't do anything monumental myself, but there are things that were impacting that you might not have noticed that others might have. And there is always hope and excitement for another year. Like Rocky said, take every day as it comes, and enjoy it for what it is.

Take care now. :)

[mothwing.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Riz.
There definitely is hope and especially excitement, and I hope 2005 will be a good year for us all. :)
Lots of love and best (belated) wishes for the new year to you! :)