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mothwingSo my course has been cancelled. Now I can either leave it at that and try to take the course next semester, or I trust my luck and go for taking it in the holidays - which might not work out because of my internship - I need to do that in the holidays as well. Oh, yeah, and my five to seven papers. Ludicrous. Hm. I have decided to at least have a look at the Professor and then to make a decision.
Another option, one my conscience is dead against, is dropping the course entirely and taking it later, next semester, maybe. That would reduce my workload by four hours and I'd be left with 24 hours a week, which would leave me more time for my internship during semester, hey, I could possibly even get a job, and I would love, love, love that at the moment. I might have more time to prepare for the courses at hand and take up some extra work. On the other hand, I'd only be left with 24 SWS, and somehow, that idea does not really appeal to me. I don't know why, but somehow, my conscience tells me I ought to have more courses, it seems just fine the way it is.
Well, if the teacher is bad, that's that, then I'm cured and I'll just drop the course and do it either in the holidays or during semester.
I am afraid that I'll forget most of the stuff I have learned during this intensive course in the holidays over the semester and will have returned to the level I started with at the end of a Latin-free semester, reducing my chances to pass the dreaded standardised external exam.
On the other hand, if my application for the change of degree is not accepted this semester, I do not need to take the course, anyway, so maybe it is wise to decide later on. Might save nerves and money. On the other hand...I have already been pretty optimistic about this and taken a lot of the courses I'll need if I can change, sooo... Ah, well. I'll see. Off to check out Mr Hartz.
EDIT: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!
Prospective English teachers need do an ORAL EXAM??? I only learned that today. I thought, since it's LATIN and no a widely spoken language, a written exam would be it. Well, apparently, I've been wrong... Half and hour of doom... I completely suck at oral exams. The last one I did was a complete desaster, and I have only very vague memories of it - I couln't even say if I've been conscious during the time of the exam or not. It was Biology. My parents are biologists, I have been explaining biology to people since I was five. I still know the answers to the exam question. I worry a lot about every exam, but this one seemed to be rather... I don't know. A safe one. And the exam?
I just remember being handed the sheet with the questions, the preparation time with me thinking "whoa, easy" and making notes - and then everything goes blank and a series of very disjointed, blurred memories follow. I can remember thinking the answers and I know that they were correct, but I cannot remember what I said at all, I can remember the slightly worried look on my examiner's face and wondering about why he was looking like that, but there seemed to be no connection to what I was saying. I cannot remember speaking at all.
And the end of the story - instead of passing the exam with my usual mark ("Very Good", 1), I only got a "Pass" (4). I honestly cannot say how that happened. The teacherwas very sorry. He was a very young and inexperienced teacher, as I've been told later on. Well. Still, I couldn't say what exactly when wrong or when it happened, or how to forestall it next time.
AAAAAAARGH!
...
....
Ahem. But then, it's only half an hour. *presses eyes shut* And it's only about the ruddy tropes, so it might be ok.
Latin was fun, though. The teacher seems really competent and good at what he's doing. Some of the students who already know him asked if he could reintroduce the "Latin quote of the day" (note to self: good idea. Steal.), which sounds like a brilliant way to get students interested. Some of the people from my course were there as well, although my old quadrumfeminate is now only a triumfeminate, sadly. We also received the texts for next week and the teacher uploads his course materials on his home page. He's really good, although he also made us abandon hopes - he treated us to his opinion on the State Examination Office,
"Seriously, normal people just do not work there. It's just sadists who have taken up the job to have an outlet for their tendencies, and natural laws of human interaction are not valid there, as everybody who has ever had to contact them will know."
Thanks for that. We also learnt to the immense horror of non-natives that everybody needs to take this monster of an external exam in the state they come from. Well, that or get a signed "Declaration of Unobjectionability" from their home states that permits them to take the exam in Hamburg. Here's hoping that it's just a formality...
...et ibant omnes ut profiterentur singuli in suam civitatem ...
Another option, one my conscience is dead against, is dropping the course entirely and taking it later, next semester, maybe. That would reduce my workload by four hours and I'd be left with 24 hours a week, which would leave me more time for my internship during semester, hey, I could possibly even get a job, and I would love, love, love that at the moment. I might have more time to prepare for the courses at hand and take up some extra work. On the other hand, I'd only be left with 24 SWS, and somehow, that idea does not really appeal to me. I don't know why, but somehow, my conscience tells me I ought to have more courses, it seems just fine the way it is.
Well, if the teacher is bad, that's that, then I'm cured and I'll just drop the course and do it either in the holidays or during semester.
I am afraid that I'll forget most of the stuff I have learned during this intensive course in the holidays over the semester and will have returned to the level I started with at the end of a Latin-free semester, reducing my chances to pass the dreaded standardised external exam.
On the other hand, if my application for the change of degree is not accepted this semester, I do not need to take the course, anyway, so maybe it is wise to decide later on. Might save nerves and money. On the other hand...I have already been pretty optimistic about this and taken a lot of the courses I'll need if I can change, sooo... Ah, well. I'll see. Off to check out Mr Hartz.
EDIT: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!!!
Prospective English teachers need do an ORAL EXAM??? I only learned that today. I thought, since it's LATIN and no a widely spoken language, a written exam would be it. Well, apparently, I've been wrong... Half and hour of doom... I completely suck at oral exams. The last one I did was a complete desaster, and I have only very vague memories of it - I couln't even say if I've been conscious during the time of the exam or not. It was Biology. My parents are biologists, I have been explaining biology to people since I was five. I still know the answers to the exam question. I worry a lot about every exam, but this one seemed to be rather... I don't know. A safe one. And the exam?
I just remember being handed the sheet with the questions, the preparation time with me thinking "whoa, easy" and making notes - and then everything goes blank and a series of very disjointed, blurred memories follow. I can remember thinking the answers and I know that they were correct, but I cannot remember what I said at all, I can remember the slightly worried look on my examiner's face and wondering about why he was looking like that, but there seemed to be no connection to what I was saying. I cannot remember speaking at all.
And the end of the story - instead of passing the exam with my usual mark ("Very Good", 1), I only got a "Pass" (4). I honestly cannot say how that happened. The teacherwas very sorry. He was a very young and inexperienced teacher, as I've been told later on. Well. Still, I couldn't say what exactly when wrong or when it happened, or how to forestall it next time.
AAAAAAARGH!
...
....
Ahem. But then, it's only half an hour. *presses eyes shut* And it's only about the ruddy tropes, so it might be ok.
Latin was fun, though. The teacher seems really competent and good at what he's doing. Some of the students who already know him asked if he could reintroduce the "Latin quote of the day" (note to self: good idea. Steal.), which sounds like a brilliant way to get students interested. Some of the people from my course were there as well, although my old quadrumfeminate is now only a triumfeminate, sadly. We also received the texts for next week and the teacher uploads his course materials on his home page. He's really good, although he also made us abandon hopes - he treated us to his opinion on the State Examination Office,
"Seriously, normal people just do not work there. It's just sadists who have taken up the job to have an outlet for their tendencies, and natural laws of human interaction are not valid there, as everybody who has ever had to contact them will know."
Thanks for that. We also learnt to the immense horror of non-natives that everybody needs to take this monster of an external exam in the state they come from. Well, that or get a signed "Declaration of Unobjectionability" from their home states that permits them to take the exam in Hamburg. Here's hoping that it's just a formality...
...et ibant omnes ut profiterentur singuli in suam civitatem ...
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Date: Monday, October 30th, 2006 05:33 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: Monday, October 30th, 2006 08:49 pm (UTC)It's mostly vice versa for me. *g*
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Date: Monday, October 30th, 2006 09:27 pm (UTC)Now you're saying it, I dimly recall reading something like that, too, but I somehow never bothered with the topic because I thought it wasn't really my problem, because I wasn't really afraid as such. Man, dumb.
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Date: Tuesday, October 31st, 2006 06:25 am (UTC)The problem is that one becomes nervous, which is a usual reaction. The problem starts when this nervosity takes over the control in some kind. One is way too fast when speaking or writing things down although they have ages of time still, or they stop logical tinking, can't think logical anymore and begin to Huddle as we say in Swabian here.
I think Prüfungsangst is when your nervousity becomes so high that it hinders you from working well in your exam, simple as that. Sadly, I always have that, it's just a little less in oral exams.