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  • A girl, aged 3, and a boy, aged four, playing at horses. Suddenly, the boy falls over, stops whinnying, and the girl and another friend look on. A moment's hesitation. Then,
    "Hey, Ben's dead! Let's EAT him! Yum, yum yum!"

  • A girl, aged 4, and a boy, aged 4, sitting at a table. On the table is a naked baby doll as I enter.
    "What are you guys doing?"
    "We want to eat the baby!"
    *splutter* "Why?"
    "It's so rosy!"

  • A boy, aged 7, comes into the room, all dressed up in black skirts and dresses so that he is entirely covered
    "And what are you? A ghost with a suntan?"
    "I am a dementor!"
    "Argh! Expecto Patronum!"
    "Hm. ... Ok, I am Lord Voldemort. Avada Kedavra!"
I had never expected the internship at the kindergarten to be so highly entertaining. There were a few more things, but I forgot them. The children are hilarious. And ill. Of course I caught the first cold I could get, and am now at home, with razorblades down my throat and my head in an oven. I doubt that I will be able to join tomorrow's trip to a playground, somehow, and that's probably for the better, because standing around on a wet playground does not really sound like a good idea right now.
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The Good )

The Bad )

More to follow soon, with an account on our weekend.

Spoilers

Tuesday, July 17th, 2007 08:39 pm
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I hate spoilers.
Well, I love spoilers.

I can NEVER resist them, and thus I sometimes trawl spoiler forums/communities, looking for titbits on sites which provide a healthy mixture of hilarious rumours and true bits of information. Ok, my fault, but I never expected to find anything remotely... true that's actually of tremendous importance. I never expect great big leaks.

Things like the scans .... No. A peak at the first page, or the first chapter, yes. Actually reading all of it... never. But of course, not everyone thinks like that.

There are evil people on LJ who use great, big, fucking blinking icons which list the characters who are going to die according to a suspiciously real-looking scan of the entire fucking book which has been floating around online. Max had warned me, I had forgotten to be careful, I saw it. To make matters even better, there are people who post a list of the characters who die with the fucking page numbers - in fucking reviews on fucking ff.net.

Awesome.

Can someone please tell me that those scans are fakes?

Please?

*gasp*

Saturday, July 14th, 2007 02:40 pm
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I only just realised it's the 14th. 

One week until book 7. 

Omgomgomg. 

No, this does not have content. But... only one week! How did that happen?

Männlichkeiten

Saturday, July 14th, 2007 01:39 pm
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English, "manhoods", or even "virilities", the title of our seminar on manliness, various constructs of manliness, and manliness, men and boys in schools, extra-curricular activities, leisure time, family, job, etc.. The last session was on Thursday, nut I can't help thinking about something I overheard during that last session.

It was another one of those courses which hammer home the view that all gender is a Construct and prone to change with the society around it. Another of those courses in which you learn that "gender" and gender roles are made up of stereotypes and norms, mostly, that nothing is inherent. After half a year of all the relativity you are completely brainwashed, I can tell you. Terms like "man" and "women" lose their communicative value completely and you find yourself avoiding them whenever possible. 
It is not possible to escape this, resistance is useless.

Unless you are one of the two sports student I had the good fortune of overhearing. 

They had a conversation about a fellow-student of theirs which left me in open-mouthed awe. 

"I don't like her at all," one of them said. "She is like this total militant bull dyke. She has super-short hair, and she even wears those strange skater trousers only men wear. I mean, like, seriously, how can you, as a woman?"

Her friend nodded vigorously and agreed.

That fellow student of hers should really double check with this expert of femininity whether her clothing is appropriate for the only construct of feminitniy in existence. 

There quite apparently is no helping some people, especially not those who after half a year of gender seminars still manage to think inside the box to such a baffling degree. I mean, sure, admittedly, it was a seminar that only acknowledged the sex/gender binary, but even so, where have they been when we talked about constructs and stereotypes, that is, all the time?

Some people's minds can only be broadened with a large crowbar.

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Imagine you want to be an EFL teacher.

What kind of language, do you think, should you be able to speak really well?

And in the requirements for the final exam, which language should be the ultimate, absolute requirement?

Yes, exactly.

Latin.

Some completely reactionary, antediluvian brainless dickhead decided once upon a time that what prospective EFL teachers really need is a sound knowledge of Latin.

Oh, and they "should", "if possible" "have spent three month in an English speaking country".

The level of proficiency required for EFL is higher than the one required for the friggin' Latin teachers. Of course their knowledge should be and is a lot sounder than ours, but it is NOT on the books, they do NOT have to take costly courses to reach the required level of proficiency. Our language requirements are, and we have to pay.

I had been relatively ok with that situation, even the fact that we have to take expensive courses and sit an expensive examination on top of the fees introduced by our darling alma mater to gain that requirement, but what really made me angry was the fact that another completely incompetent dickhead with a pen decided to make some of the language courses free of charge, modern languages a lot of people learn for fun like Spanish, Italian, Russian, Portuguese because there are some people who need them for their courses - but they did not include the fucking Latin courses.

So if you want to spend your holidays on the beach and be able to order your drinks in Spanish the university will happily pay for your course, but if you are forced to reach a medium level of proficiency (the Latinum, in other words, Hamburg still has the small Latinum, the Latinum, and the Big L), you have to pay for that yourself, €100 per course (either three intensive courses or six courses during the semester) plus the fucking fee for the examination at the end.

I want to get hold of the intellectually depleted fossile who decided we need a Latinum instead of a small Latinum - as EFL teachers do pretty much everywhere else in Germany, and of the unthinking idiot who decided to make other courses free of charge and not Latin.
I like Latin, and I would not mind taking the courses and not even the ridiculous amount of extra work if there was sense in that and I would not have to pay for it, if there was some kind of remote sense to it.

Alright. Enough anger, off to see Crocky. ♥

Midnight Release

Wednesday, July 11th, 2007 08:01 am
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Who else went to a midnight release?

I think I am going to get a decent night's sleep before I attempt to say anything about anything, though, I've only had two hours and am off to the last session of my course now.

All in all, I really liked it, but it was too fast-paced for me, and although I was happy because of the things that did end up in the movie of course I missed certain things although I realise that this film is not made for rabid fans, but for an US American, general audience. Who probably do not care too much about the correct characterisation of characters and a correct adaptation. I liked the filming, and loved seeing the characters again, although I sure as hell don't know if our uninitiated brethren out there are able to get anything without having read the books. Still, there were many things I loved.

All those dressed-up fans were extra entertainment, adorned with different scarves, moaning about different parts of the movie that were not up to their standards ("And Sirius was played by a different dog!!!"). No Slytherins about, though, only Gryffies and Ravies, curiously, and the things they cared for were not even on my list of potentially important things.

Ok, off now.
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I have a thing for beautiful women in beautiful dresses on sepia pictures. But then, who doesn't.



It's sad that they only have the names of the Caucasian women on these pictures. I wouldn't fancy finding myself called "young Caucasian-05" on a popular vintage picture site. The site is fittingly called Old Pictures and can be found here. The pictures below were taken in the US, also in the last century, some of them in the nineteenth century.

Pictures )

Ok. Off to take Sev to the vet, he needs a shot. Wish me luck.
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I found a great site with lots of vintage pictures!



Snapshots from History (pictures taken roughly between 1900-1930 according to site) )

These old photographies are just great. I love the colours of them, the contrast, the patterns of light and darkness. So beautiful!

The Collar

Wednesday, July 4th, 2007 02:51 pm
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Text of the poem )

There's also a (slightly hideous) midi musical version of The Collar.

I always enjoyed reading Herbert, although he's aggravating to discuss in class because someone will always see his stance as a personal insult to their lazy wannabe-atheism and start making idiot comments like, "Do we have to discuss this in class? No one believes in that sort of thing anymore, anyway!" - "Do I have to take part in this discussion even though I am not a Christian?"

Anyway. Off to write another oral presentation single-handedly.
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I died when I read that. If anyone is interested in the photo, it is for sale here, and the money goes to St. Jude Children's Research Hospital.
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When I heard at the close of the day how my name had been receiv'd with plaudits in the capitol, still it was not a happy night for me that follow'd,
And else when I carous'd, or when my plans were accomplish'd, still I was not happy,
But the day when I rose at dawn from the bed of perfect health, refresh'd, singing, inhaling the ripe breath of autumn,
When I saw the full moon in the west grow pale and disappear in the morning light,
When I wander'd alone over the beach, and undressing bathed, laughing with the cool waters, and saw the sun rise,
And when I thought how my dear friend my lover was on his way coming, O then I was happy,
O then each breath tasted sweeter, and all that day my food nourish'd me more, and the beautiful day pass'd well,
And the next came with equal joy, and with the next at evening came my friend,
And that night while all was still I heard the waters roll slowly continually up the shores,
I heard the hissing rustle of the liquid and sands as directed to me whispering to congratulate me,
For the one I love most lay sleeping by me under the same cover in the cool night,
In the stillness in the autumn moonbeams his face was inclined toward me,
And his arm lay lightly around my breast--and that night I was happy.

- Walt Whitman

Rabbi Ben Ezra

Wednesday, June 27th, 2007 12:35 am
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Rabbi Ben Ezra

Grow old along with me!
The best is yet to be,
The last of life, for which the first was made:
Our times are in His hand
Who saith, 'A whole I planned,
Youth shows but half; trust God: see all, nor be afraid!'

Not that, amassing flowers,
Youth sighed, 'Which rose make ours,
Which lily leave and then as best recall?'
Not that, admiring stars,
It yearned, 'Nor Jove, nor Mars;
Mine be some figured flame which blends, transcends them all!'

Not for such hopes and fears
Annulling youth's brief years,
Do I remonstrate: folly wide the mark!
Rather I prize the doubt
Low kinds exist without,
Finished and finite clods, untroubled by a spark.


- Robert Browning

Hanover

Tuesday, June 26th, 2007 10:27 pm
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And to spam your Friend's page even more, a few pictures of Hanover I've been meaning to upload for ages.



That's pretty much what I always disliked about Hanover. But Hanover can be pretty:

Occlumency clip

Tuesday, June 26th, 2007 12:36 pm
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A lot of stuff we already know, plus a seconds-long sequence to spoil yourselves silly.

Here goes.

Ok, ok. And here:
Spoil, spoil... )

EDIT: *wipes eyes* OMGWTFBBQ?!!!! LUNA? New LOVE interest?? Did they even READ the novels? What kind of complete IDIOT wrote this shite?

Red

Saturday, June 23rd, 2007 12:04 am
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Pictures on my mood.



Red (11) )

And yumminess:

Ahhh, coffee... I love you, too.

Baumschubser? Pshaw.

Wednesday, June 20th, 2007 05:49 pm
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Seidel revisited...

Monday, June 18th, 2007 04:35 pm
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Brief break before heading back to uni...


Was bleibt?

Ach, was bleibt? - Ein kleiner Hügel,
Drüber mit dem leichten Flügel
Froh ein Sommerfalter fliegt,
Und das Gras im Wind sich wiegt.
Eine Weile Angedenken
Mag man wohl dem Schläfer schenken,
Bald weiss Niemand, wer da liegt.

Manche, die der Ruhm erhoben,
Hört man ein Jahrhundert loben
Oder ein Jahrtausend lang,
Bis auch sie die Zeit verschlang.
Die zum Höchsten einst erkoren -
Ihr Gedächtniss ging verloren,
Wie ein Lied im Wind verklang.

Fern noch ragen mächt'ge Gipfel
Als der Menschheit stolze Wipfel
Leuchtend aus dem Nebelmeer:
Alexander und Homer.
Aber jene Zeit wird kommen,
Da auch sie in Duft verschwommen,
Und es nennt sie Keiner mehr,

Unterdess in ew'gen Kreisen
Und in altgewohnten Gleisen
Ihre Bahn die Erde geht,
Achtlos, was auf ihr besteht,
Achtlos auf der Menschheit Träume
Wandelt sie durch Weltenräume,
Bis auch sie in Staub verweht.

Heinrich Seidel, 1867.

50 books challenge

Sunday, June 17th, 2007 11:29 am
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23.

Arts of the Possible, by Adrienne Rich.
Once more. An essay collections with essays which often make me feel uncomfortable when I realise how much her socialisation in the fifties was similar to my own, thirty years later. I like her thoughts.

22.

Die wunderbaren Jahre by Reiner Kunze.
Great book with anecdotes and impression of life in the GDR of a teenage daughter and her father. 
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A friend ([livejournal.com profile] jaywalker23 ) showed me this version of Somwhere over the Rainbow back in the day, when we were still at school, and it's my favourite version of the song.

Well, it's everybody's favourite version, really.

Click me )

For me, it's of course connected with memories of her as well, which makes it even better.

Simplified Shakespeare

Wednesday, June 13th, 2007 01:57 pm
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Courtesy to SparkNotes, of course.

Recognise this?

" The question is: is it better to be alive or dead?
Is it nobler to put up with all the nasty things that luck throws your way, or to fight against all those troubles by simply putting an end to them once and for all?
Dying, sleeping—that's all dying is—a sleep that ends all the heartache and shocks that life on earth gives us—that's an achievement to wish for. To die, to sleep—to sleep, maybe to dream. Ah, but there's the catch: in death's sleep who knows what kind of dreams might come, after we've put the noise and commotion of life behind us. That's certainly something to worry about. That's the consideration that makes us stretch out our sufferings so long. After all, who would put up with all life's humiliations—the abuse from superiors, the insults of arrogant men, the pangs of unrequited love, the inefficiency of the legal system, the rudeness of people in office, and the mistreatment good people have to take from bad—when you could simply take out your knife and call it quits?
Who would choose to grunt and sweat through an exhausting life, unless they were afraid of something dreadful after death, the undiscovered country from which no visitor returns, which we wonder about without getting any answers from and which makes us stick to the evils we know rather than rush off to seek the ones we don't?
Fear of death makes us all cowards, and our natural boldness becomes weak with too much thinking. Actions that should be carried out at once get misdirected, and stop being actions at all.
But shh, here comes the beautiful Ophelia. Pretty lady, please remember me when you pray."

Or this?

"I only worship what's natural, not what's manmade.
Why should I let myself be tortured by manmade social customs that deprive me of my rights simply because I was born twelve or fourteen months later than my older brother? Why do they call me “bastard” and “lowlife” when I'm just as gifted in mind and body as legitimate children? Why do they call us bastards “lowlifes”? Always “lowlife,” “bastard,” “lowlife,” “lowlife.”
At least we bastards were conceived in a moment of passionate lust rather than in a dull, tired marriage bed, where half-sleeping parents monotonously churn out a bunch of sissy kids.
All right then, legitimate brother Edgar, I have to have your lands. Our father loves me just as much as the legitimate Edgar. What a nice word that is, “legitimate”! Well, my legitimate Edgar, if this letter works and my plan succeeds, Edmund the lowlife will beat the legitimate.
Look out, I'm on my way up.
Three cheers for bastards!"

(From here. )

The question is- is this really better?

This is designed to help US Highschool students, by the way, not University students, although I know a fair number of Uni students who still resort to SparkNotes when confronted with an unknown text they find puzzling.
While I am all for making it easier for the students to understand old texts, I don't think that these things are really that helpful for learning how to read and understand older language on your own. I know that even I will often rather read the translation rather than the foreign language if both are available on the same page. It is very likely students would read the simplified version of the text only rather than the original text.
That would defeat the purpose of the original text, really, and it does terrible things to the language. Making the students write their own translation would be much more useful, if time consuming.
While selected passages from this might be a good introduction to the play, and maybe a couple of scenes might be handed to the students to allow them a slow intro to the course, it doesn't seem sensible to have them read the entirety of Hamlet in this simplified version.

DAZ class

Tuesday, June 12th, 2007 06:23 pm
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Today was my first DAZ class. I LOVED Ulla's class. When I was there, ten of the children were there, four from Russia, one from the Netherlands, one from Indonesia, two from China, one from Turkey and one from Poland.

The children were all lovely, if a bit too lively at times, and more open-minded and open to teachers than any class I have ever seen. They seem very much at ease, they clearly enjoy being in that class, being together, and they clearly love Ulla a lot. I regretted almost instantly that I only did one lesson with them, as teaching them also more or less worked by itself. Although they were all a bit too lively at the beginning because they'd celebrated the birthday of one of their classmates in the break before and had been the subjects of a teaching experiment before that, the atmosphere in that class is so great that I'd have loved to stay there and talk to them some more rather than go back to the stuffed rooms at the uni.

We read a text on a marriage together. Since it was a Turkish story that pretty much made Selin's day as she from Turkey and was able to explain a lot on the background of Nasreddin Hodja stories to the class very well and relate a few anecdotes. As an intro to the lesson I asked them whether they'd been to a wedding, and thankfully, they all had been. When I asked whether someone wanted to say something about the wedding they'd been to, they all eagerly told me in my language, which is, in many cases, their third language, about their experiences at their relatives weddings in countries I only know from the Atlas and which they used to live in.
These children are so much more experienced than me. 
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Exegi monumentum aere perennius
Regalique situ pyramidum altius,
Quod non imber edax, non aquilo impotens
Possit dixuere aut innumerabilis
Annorum series et fuga temporum.
Non omnis moriar multaque pars mei
Vitabit Libitinam: usque ego postera
Crescam laude recens, dum Capitolium
Scandet cum tacita virgine pontifex.
Dicar, qua violens obstrepit Aufidus
Et qua pauper aquae Daunus agrestium
Regnavit populorum, ex humili potens,
Princeps Aeolium carmen ad Italos
Deduxisse modos. Sume superbiam
Quaesitam meritis et mihi Delphica
Lauro cinge volens, Melpomene, comam.

I need to practice translating, anyway, and later today, I'm going to practice on that one. The first lines sound more than promising, and all that reminds me of Ozymandias is good.

Musical satires

Monday, June 11th, 2007 12:37 pm
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Ok, I can't even read sheet music properly. But John Stump's compositions still cracked me up- probably because I don't have to in those cases:

Faerie's Aire and Death Waltz
String Quartet No. 556(b) for Strings In A Minor (Motoring Accident)
Prelude and the Last Hope in C and C# Minor.

Priceless.

Dover Beach

Monday, June 11th, 2007 07:28 am
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An old favourite.

The sea is calm to-night.
The tide is full, the moon lies fair
Upon the straits; on the French coast the light
Gleams and is gone; the cliffs of England stand,
Glimmering and vast, out in the tranquil bay.
Only, from the long line of spray
Where the sea meets the moon-blanched land,
Listen! you hear the grating roar
Of pebbles which the waves draw back, and fling,
At their return, up the high strand,
Begin, and cease, and then again begin,
With tremulous cadence slow, and bring
The eternal note of sadness in.

Sophocles long ago
Heard it on the A gaean, and it brought
Into his mind the turbid ebb and flow
Of human misery; we
Find also in the sound a thought,
Hearing it by this distant northern sea.

The Sea of Faith
Was once, too, at the full, and round earth's shore
Lay like the folds of a bright girdle furled.
But now I only hear
Its melancholy, long, withdrawing roar,
Retreating, to the breath
Of the night-wind, down the vast edges drear
And naked shingles of the world.

Ah, love, let us be true
To one another! for the world, which seems
To lie before us like a land of dreams,
So various, so beautiful, so new,
Hath really neither joy, nor love, nor light,
Nor certitude, nor peace, nor help for pain;
And we are here as on a darkling plain
Swept with confused alarms of struggle and flight,
Where ignorant armies clash by night.

Matthew Arnold, 1851-2

Books

Sunday, June 10th, 2007 04:23 pm
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Sorry for spamming everyone's Friends page like that, I guess backdating this will be best so you aren't knocked out by the pics. I forgot about the challenge thing. Again. Let's see which books I can remember...

21.


Fünfzig Gedichte des Expressionismus, selected by Dietrich Bode.
Great poems in there, I instantly fell in love with a few poets, too. It's nice reading German poetry again.
They were a much-treasured present from Crocky!


20.


The Night Watch, by Sarah Waters.
Booker nominee set in 1940ies London centred around a group of very lovable Londoners, carefully drawn with sympathy and sensitivity by the author, great locations with very vivid descriptions that depict the horror of the war but also the realities of every-day life and lesbian couples more realistic than I have ever seen.


19.

The Gay Teen, ed. Gerald Unks.
An interesting text book on facts and figures of Gay teens and their problems with heterosexualism at US Highschools. Interesting read, but also pretty devastating at times.


18.

Blood, Bread and Poetry by Adrienne Rich.
I fangirl her. Her essays are striking, alarming, and easy to read. It is scary that what she said back in the 1980ies still did not really sink in in the minds (eg. the fact that homosexuality is not a lifestyle, who would have thought).


17.


Herland, by Charlotte Perkins Gilman.
Great book, although some of the properties she outlines for her females-only utopia are a bit unrealistic to my eyes. Still, it was fun to read and interesting.


16.
 
Love that dog, by Sharon Creech.
Great self-proclaimed novel about a boy and his introduction to free verse poetry, very sweet. It consists entirely of the poems of a boy called Jack who is writing the poems instructed by his teacher Miss Stretchberry. Although he is more than unwilling at first, he comes to enjoy writing poems more and more and is able to come to express a traumatic event through his poems.


Oh, I forgot:

15.

 
Feet of Clay by Terry Pratchett.
One of my favourite Discworld novels ever. I adore the Watch series, and Vetinari even more.
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This really takes me back. I was startled by a few lines from the poem today while I was reading The Night Watch by Sarah Waters, I turned a page and there they were.

I loved this poem because it is so mysterious and the scene, the imagery is magical. It's strange, because I never really knew it by heart, and usually I learn poems by heart which mean something to me, but with this, I never did. I first discovered it in twelfth grade when I was collecting the blue poetry volumes in the Penguin Popular Classics series, I think it was in one of those that I read it first. I love it.
But I never really could put my finger on why I love it so much.

When googling for it today, I found it on the minstrels. The Minstrels, a newsgroup hosted by Rice University for Computer Science, founded in 1999, is one of my favourite poetry sites.
And what did I see?

The Listeners was the second poem they uploaded, back in 1999, and the number of reactions it received were enormous by the standards of the site. Nearly ALL of the people who said something it said how much they loved it, that they loved this poem even though they usually hated poetry at school. There were many people who said that they had very fond memories of the poem, that they had a connection to it somehow.

In short, they feel like I do. I don't know what makes this poem one of the all-time favourites, much like Daffodils, but it is. It is one of my life-saving poems and it is very reassuring that there are people who feel about this like I do.


The Listeners

'Is there anybody there?' said the Traveller,
Knocking on the moonlit door;
And his horse in the silence champed the grasses
Of the forest's ferny floor:
And a bird flew up out of the turret,
Above the Traveller's head
And he smote upon the door again a second time;
'Is there anybody there?' he said.
But no one descended to the Traveller;
No head from the leaf-fringed sill
Leaned over and looked into his grey eyes,
Where he stood perplexed and still.
But only a host of phantom listeners
That dwelt in the lone house then
Stood listening in the quiet of the moonlight
To that voice from the world of men:
Stood thronging the faint moonbeams on the dark stair,
That goes down to the empty hall,
Hearkening in an air stirred and shaken
By the lonely Traveller's call.
And he felt in his heart their strangeness,
Their stillness answering his cry,
While his horse moved, cropping the dark turf,
'Neath the starred and leafy sky;
For he suddenly smote on the door, even
Louder, and lifted his head:-
'Tell them I came, and no one answered,
That I kept my word,' he said.
Never the least stir made the listeners,
Though every word he spake
Fell echoing through the shadowiness of the still house
From the one man left awake:
Ay, they heard his foot upon the stirrup,
And the sound of iron on stone,
And how the silence surged softly backward,
When the plunging hoofs were gone.

-- Walter De La Mare.

Squee!

Wednesday, June 6th, 2007 11:56 pm
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"When those who have the power to name and to socially construct reality choose not to see you or hear you, whether you are dark-skinned, old, disabled, female, or speak with a different accent or dialect than theirs, when someone with the authority of a teacher, say, describes the world and you are not in it, there is a moment of psychic disequilibrium, as if you looked into a mirror and saw nothing."
 
Today, two of the brightest guys presented their idea for a study in our course - a study on heteronormativity, institutional discrimination and the possibilities of schema refreshment in poetry lessons.

And they quoted the quote. Adrienne Rich, of course. I fangirl her.

Pladder...

Tuesday, June 5th, 2007 09:09 pm
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Remember the word?

Here are pictures from the day in question.



Rainy Linden (13) )

Pictures

Tuesday, June 5th, 2007 12:16 pm
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I may not be able to post any entry longer than three lines at the moment, but maybe I can post pictures?

My amazing cat:



Meet Sev )

Pladder…

Tuesday, May 29th, 2007 10:30 am
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“Pladdern” is a German word for “to rain”. (It’s pronounced ['pladɐ], like *pludder would be pronounced in English).

There are lovely words in German to describe rain, most of them forcefully onomatopoetic. “Pladdern” is one, “gießen” (['gisn]) another for rain that “prasselt” (['pʁaslt]). “Piseln” (['pi:zln]) and “nieseln” (['ni:zln]) are for light rain that “sprüht” ([ʃpʁyt]) and “tropft” ([tʁɔpft]).

“Es pladdert” means it’s raining cats and dogs. Pladdern is what it did yesterday, most of the afternoon.
I was out on a walk taking pictures of plants when rain suddenly pladderte onto them in huge drops. Rain pladderte onto my head with such force I felt individual rain drops hitting my scalp. Rain pladderte onto my glasses, making my vision blurry, rain soaked my shoes. Rain pladderte onto my lens and made me fear my camera would be broken by the time I reached dry land. Rain pladderte onto the path and created instant puddles that grew faster than any I had ever seen. Rain pladderte onto the stones of the pavement I reached in a run.
Rain pladderte onto the roofs of the cars that were parking rather than driving on the street, as it pladderte so hard that it was impossible to see anything, even though the were screaming with effort and moving so fast they were a blur.
Rain pladderte onto my shoulders, completely soaking my shirt, rain that seemed to come from below soaked my trouser legs and rain pladderte onto my bag, threatening to soak all my books. Rain pladderte onto the blue umbrella of a little boy who grinned wildly at me as he passed me by in a run.
Rain pladderte onto the tree I reached and under which I tried to wait for the rain to end. It turned out that it was no good at all because rain also pladderte onto the grass below, so I had to leave again, and rain pladderte onto my wet, bedraggled shape as I ran for the house. Crocky doesn’t even live far from the park I had been in, but those were the wettest three minutes of my entire life.
Rain pladderte onto my hands as I fished for the key in my bag, rain pladderte onto my cold shoulders, onto my legs.
Rain also pladderte onto my head as I realised there had been an umbrella in my bag all along. 

Yesterday was fun.

Apart from feeling genuinely stupid for forgetting not the umbrella but about my umbrella I read Feet of Clay, chapters in various books on teaching poetry, and wrote a story for Crocky I am rather pleased with. It consists only of receipts and shopping lists.

I also realised how much I would like to live alone for a month at least before moving in with Crocky. I love her, but I feel that I do need a space where I am alone for a month to ... acclimatise and to celebrate the lack of other people at least for a while before moving in with her again. I want to live with her far too much to live on my own for long, but that one month… that one month I may need.

I don't really have any grand news to share, apart from this item of vocabulary in German, and who knows what that could be useful for.

Life is good.

Pentecost

Friday, May 25th, 2007 12:37 am
mothwing: (Woman)
Which equals a week offline, at Crocky's.

Sadly, "holidays" is definitely not the appropriate term here, there's too much stuff I have to do. Including a solo group work, as it seems, as my group miraculously disappeared and didn't get in touch with me, either. I love that kind of shite. Ah, well. At least I'm not here.

I hope that by the time I'm back my treat to myself, Love That Dog will have arrived, too. I am really looking forward to that!

See youse in a week.
mothwing: (Woman)
Seen Films Meme

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own facebook/myspace/ell-jay account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun...

81. I have a life. Close call. Thank god they didn't include Star Trek, or The Planet of the Apes series. )
I am back from a weekend at Crocky's, which was wonderful.

And back from an excruciating meet-up with a group I am doing an oral report with. These guys SUCK. They don't know what they want, they don't know how to do what they want, and, most of all, they don't know anything about the subject of the course. All of the suggestions they've made so far have nothing to do whatsoever with what we are supposed to do. I wish I could do that project on my own.

Also, it seems as though I will lose a semester and finish a semester later than I planned because I can only hand in the Scheine I receive for the successful participation in courses until a before the end of the semester, and that would mean, once more, submitting papers early. FIVE papers, in that case, and that can't be done. Sucky, sucky.

Oh, and an oral report no one is interested in tomorrow morning. Which also sucks.

I am SO tired and worn out, I don't know why. Will catch up on everyone tomorrow.
Night!
mothwing: Gif of wolf running towards the right in front of large moon (Wolf)
This is my favourite tree.



They're the greatest import ever, right up there with the potato.

At this time of the year, they're in bloom all over the city. Most of the trees in the inner city are ill, of course, but they're pretty, and so fragrant. I love the dark brown, furrowed bark, and leaves that look so fragile compared to the stem, and the flowers most of all. These trees are so resilient that they're often planted alongside streets and avenues, and Hamburg has a lot of those.

The bark as well as the seeds are poisonous, the wood is hard and flexible at the same time, they attracts bees and they have their really fragrant smell. The trees tolerate exhaust and other fumes really well and they can grow on poor soils, they're pioneer plant.

I love them.

Coolest video ever

Tuesday, May 15th, 2007 07:03 pm
mothwing: Gif of wolf running towards the right in front of large moon (Wolf)
Lookeeee the pretty Ciliate! )

I've also been watching neutrophils chasing and chomping bacteriae for an hour now. YouTube is awesome.

Right you are, I am hungry, too. )

God Hates Fags

Monday, May 14th, 2007 10:43 pm
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Stumbled upon this on a community, and I was SO absolutely dumb-struck by this video I just had to share.

It's just unbelievable. Made my day even more than the radio commentator's comment on the results of the Grand Prix this morning - "Well, she won - and she is a lesbian, although she is not hot."

Fred Phelp's opinion on the Tech massacre is ... utterly unpostable.

This is just sad.

What on earth must have happened to this man that he could become like this?

EDIT: She is graceful (just look at the T-shirt: "No Homos Need Apply"), pro-immigrants ("Not that I like it"), because "we don't have infrastructure anymore", "there are no people to flip the burgers", and, most importantly, "due to abortion, boneheads are" ruling the country.

Mundtodt

Tuesday, May 8th, 2007 09:40 pm
mothwing: (Woman)
Mundtodt.

That is a nice pun on the  name of the German scientists who has been recently sacked after making a critical comment on the  state of the University of Hamburg in an interview she gave in March. The interview in question can be found here, a PDF  here. Todt, Sabine Todt, is the name of the person sacked, and "mundtot" is the German word for muzzling someone.

She is the case who led to the decision the head of our university made that any academic who wants to make a statement on anything concerning the university in the presence of a journalist has to get the press office's OK first.
Or else.
Or else, they can be sacked like Sabine Todt, because the head doesn't hold with people who are too critical and whose view on our university is not the same as that the press office presents. Apparently, the press office does not want people to know that some of the university's scientists are working for one Euro per hour, or, like Sabine Todt, for €1,200 per semester. They don't want senior members of staff to comment on the new internet based system coordination enrolment into courses, either - which is not working and has caused severe difficulties for some students in the past semesters.

I knew that the Head had ruled that no one was allowed to say anything not coordinated with the press office, but I heard of this case only today. Our dearest Head denies that the interview has anything to do with the fact that Ms Todt has been sacked, of course. I wonder what her explanation would be, because she was supposed to have a seminar next semester, which has apparently been cancelled.

Amazing coincidences.

Lunch break

Monday, May 7th, 2007 01:40 pm
mothwing: A wanderer standing on a cliff, looking over a distant city (Book)
My weekend was outside of space and time, because Crocky was here. Something about her just makes time stop and moves everything to another plane of reality that is not exactly unreal, but isn't coherent with my everyday reality of university and family, either.
It is scary how much my week depends on the knowledge that on the weekend, we will be seeing each other. If we do not, I don't feel well, I grow very dependent on our daily phone calls, and I miss her terribly every day. Sometimes I doubt it's entirely healthy. On the weekends, I feel that they belong to us and us alone, and I meet disturbances only very, very grudgingly.
I have become absolutely addicted to this relationship, and time with Crocky. So far it hasn't had any dramatically negative side-effects, but I doubt that addictions are positive, even when they're to people.

She went home again this morning and I am waiting for my courses to begin at four, in the Mac pool. There is so little oxygen in the buildings that I feel completely light-headed and unable to concentrate on any work. It's too cold to open the window, too. Great.

I hate the fact that my university is obsessed with Macs. There is one PC pool, and two Mac pools. Blegh. Are there Word-like programmes on Macs? Do they exist? If they do, why doesn't my university bother with having them installed on these computers? I am about to write my homework in an e-mail programme. Although seeing as the two girl working on their presentation on Scots (which makes my skin crawl - do they know anything at all about Scots??) are using a PowerPoint-like programme, they do seem to exist.

Why do we even bother with presentations? I think in all the years at this university I have been to about two presentations that were really worth attending. No one ever takes them seriously and the value they have for the courses are close to zero, especially with people doing the presentation who so obviously don't know what they're talking about. Sadly, I can't find the great site with sound samples Crocky showed me the other day, but here's an example for synthetic Scots.

I've been looking everywhere for material on "The Widower" by Hugh McDiarmid, but there's just nothing on the little poem that contains two very pretty words, "pitmerk" and "snell". "Pitmerk" means pitch dark, "snell", which means piercing, icy, cold, severe.

It doesn't help that there are so many other pretty poems on the poetry pages that distract me, like The Twa Corbies - anonymous, Scottish ), or the unforgettable Tay Bridge Disaster - William Topaz McGonagall ). Or this poem, Lovesong - Ted Hughes ). I loved his "Examination at the Womb Door".

Off to try and get some work done instead of slowly dozing off.
mothwing: Gif of wolf running towards the right in front of large moon (Wolf)
For those who don't know - be very careful with things that contain it if you don't want to gain a lot of weight.

There is a heated debate about how dangerous it really is, with scientists claiming it's a perfectly natural taste enhancer on the one and and scientists claiming its neural toxicity for both adults and babies on the other, but even if GLU can't cross the blood-brain barrier its unhealthy enough.

There are some foodstuffs which contain it naturally (meat, ageing cheese), but its fairly common in other, non-sweet foodstuffs as well, like soups, crisps, chips, rahmen - just check the stuff in your kitchen. It's in there for the sole purpose of enhancing the taste, but also to make people consume more of the stuff.  There is a study from 2005 that deals with GLU, and the outcome of that is fairly alarming:

Obesity, voracity, and short stature: the impact of glutamate on the regulation of appetite (M Hermanussen and JAF Tresguerre)

From the article:"... The animals fed 5 g MSG per day increased water uptake by threefold (P<0.01), and food uptake by almost two-fold (P<0.01). The influence of MSG is in general more marked in males than in females."

Interpretation: GLU is a widely used nutritional substance that potentially exhibits significant neuronal toxicity. Voracity, and impaired GH secretion are the two major characteristics of parenterally administered GLU-induced neuronal damage. GLU maintains its toxicity in animals even when administered orally. Males appear to be more sensitive than females. The present study for the first time demonstrates, that a widely used nutritional monosubstance – the flavouring agent MSG – at concentrations that only slightly surpass those found in everyday human food, exhibits significant potential for damaging the hypothalamic regulation of appetite, and thereby determines the propensity of world-wide obesity. We suggest to reconsider the recommended daily allowances of amino acids and nutritional protein, and to abstain from the popular protein-rich diets, and particularly from adding the flavouring agents MSG.


Skipping Methods and Material.

Results )

More here.

Ok, European Court, toxic or not, why is it allowed to add this stuff to food at all?

Meme

Thursday, May 3rd, 2007 10:42 pm
mothwing: (Woman)

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 11
Physical Touch: 9
Acts of Service: 6
Words of Affirmation: 4
Receiving Gifts: 0


Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Books

Wednesday, May 2nd, 2007 12:35 pm
mothwing: A wanderer standing on a cliff, looking over a distant city (Book)
I have completely forgotten about the book challenge thing. There should be at least one other book between these two and the last one, but I really can't remember which. So...

14.

Mirror Mirror, by Gregory Maguire. I didn't like this one as much as his other novels, although I adore his Medicis. Somehow I never managed to develop a liking or even sympathy for the  main character and her story.


13.



Die Vermessung der Welt, Daniel Kehlmann.
It's going to be Measuring the world in English. Buy this book.
I had to read it for a course, but I liked it so much I read it over again directly.

I wish I wouldn't have to read such a lot for my courses, then I'd have more time for my own books.
mothwing: Gif of wolf running towards the right in front of large moon (Wolf)
Bush actually vetoed the troop withdrawal?

I can't believe he did that. He should listen to himself more often: "Our troops and their families deserve better, and their elected leaders can do better."

Right he is. He could have done much better.
mothwing: Gif of wolf running towards the right in front of large moon (Wolf)


Hagenbeck's 100 this year. Hagenbeck is the illustrious zoo in Hamburg. It's too expensive to EVER go there, sadly. But I still love it. Although it was not even IN Hamburg when it was founded (but in Stellingen), it is today one of the most famous places in this city and definitely worth the visit.

It is one of the first zoos in Germany whose owners cared about proper animal care, and while I don't really agree with the existence of zoos in general, I am happy that there were and are people who want to ensure that animals in captivity have a better life.

Weekend

Friday, April 27th, 2007 12:06 pm
mothwing: A wanderer standing on a cliff, looking over a distant city (Book)
Off to a weekend at Crocky's.

I hope we feel like going to the Herrenhäuser Gärten. Should be very pretty around this time of the year.

A weekend is just never enough time...

Daemon

Thursday, April 26th, 2007 10:06 pm
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A Day In The Life

Thursday, April 26th, 2007 09:11 pm
mothwing: A wanderer standing on a cliff, looking over a distant city (Book)
I managed to get a sunstroke.

Or my glasses are not strong enough anymore and don't manage to correct my vision anymore - which results in a lot of queasiness and light-headedness. Not really that bad, but I was glad when I was able to go home, which was a lot earlier than anticipated.

Sometimes, I feel there is something wrong with my Uni courses. Take today, for example - and what today's courses consisted of.

Time[profile] angie_21_237   Me
8-10am
Listening to an oral report on the history of the modern male, discussing the content of the text.Listening to a report on the history of the modern male, then a half-hour group work session consisting of cutting pictures from magazines and sticking them on a poster.
10-12am
Doing an oral presentation on an economic theory (for credit), followed by a group work session, the groups discussing and applying the abstract principles just learned.Listening to an oral report on The Brothers Lionheart and the use of colours and elements in the book. This consisted of listening to people read out bits of the novel with their best fairy tale voices and then discussing our associations with the colours used.
2-4pm
Course on the poverty in Hamburg - theory and practical solutions to a growing problem (20% of the under-six-year-olds are living on social welfare money today)Trying for three quarters of an hour to upload the texts we were supposed to read into StudyLog, then trying to talk to people on Skype for ten minutes. Then giving up.
4-8pm
Another theory-heavy course with discussions and rather abstract texts.Sitting in a room for ten minutes past the beginning of the course, then finding out that the course does not take place, and going home.

Somehow, I think I have the right to feel vaguely ...unchallenged.

Especially "Media Theory" is a complete disappointment.
For some reason, the poor people we are supposed to be working with are Postgrad students and even lecturers from Unis all over Europe - which is a great thing - but all we have been doing so far is trying to install programs and going, "Hello? Hello? Can you hear me? I can hear you, but can you hear me?" into our mics - and discussing how we were not able to access the homework nor read the assignment because the file was corrupted. It's pretty pathetic.

Something completely different - did you get my e-mail, [profile] count_tygath?
mothwing: (Woman)
Curiously, somewhere between these two:

you are darkcyan
#008B8B

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.

Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.

Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.
the spacefem.com html color quiz

you are mediumauqamarine
#66CDAA

Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there's a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
mothwing: (Woman)
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Amen.

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